Crazy Ex-Girlfriend or am I? :: My Miranda Moment

Crazy Ex-Girlfriend or am I?

By BA_chick

Sunday, August 31, 2008

By just reading the title to this story, I'm sure you can guess what my story is about but that song title had a different impact on me then most. Yes men have wronged me but I'm sure every girl has had that one or two bad boyfriends in her lifetime. My story is just that...2 bad boyfriends. The first one was this guy, who I'll call "Kevin", who I had thing for for about 2 years. When I relized we had a friend in common, I asked her to introduce me. She did and Kevin and I ended up going on our first date and it was wonderful! We started dating and getting to know eachother over the next 5 months or so. I thought everything was going great! (Don't we all ladies?!) He promised me the world! He was so sweet! Everyone that knew him, told me Kevin was a great guy. I really thought this guy was a keeper! Then 6 months into it, he changed. He had gone to correctional officers academy for 6 weeks, we didnt see eachother at all and rarely got to talk on the phone, it was hard not to see him or hear his voice, but when Kevin came back, I knew somthing was different. He came back a jackass, basically. Treating me like I was to cater to him and that he was the only thing that mattered to me. Then one night, things were said and stuff happened and he freaked out! Needless to say, it ended our relationship. I was sad, of course, but realized it was for the better. One of his friends was there to comfort me. He told me he too, had noticed a change in Kevin and that it was better for us to break up then continuing down a bad path. The year after Kevin and I broke up, his friend and I started dating. We grew close over the year and thought we'd give dating a try. Again, it was wonderful from the beginning. I never dated someone who I felt so connected to and trusted with all my heart. We dated for about 3 months until he made a huge mistake. He cheated on me with a another girl. He use to always tell me how cheating was wrong and how he hated when people did. I felt the same way thats why I couldn't believe it when I heard it. But I had to pry the truth out of him and I decided to end it. He knew what he did was wrong but what bugged me the most was how he said he hated cheating and would never do that. Also, he knew about my last relationship and he saw how much hurt i went through and for him to turn around and put me though that again made me angery! I felt so wronged by both of these men and after this happened, I turned to Miranda Lambert's music. I've always been a fan of hers since Nashville Star, but now I felt like I really connected with the music. Her music helped me throught these rough times and made me realize I wasn't going to that girl that guys can screw over or take advantage of. And I've learned from my mistakes, no more dating guys who sweet talk you to death and promise you things and never fulfill those promises! No more cheaters! As I'm typing this, I'm listening to Bring Me Down. After that, I'll probably listen to Crazy Ex-Girlfriend which makes me feel empowered and makes me think, "I'm not going to cry over boys anymore, boys are going to cry over me!" To everyone else, this song is about getting back at those who've wronged you. The impact the song on me was that I should dust off and get back on that horse and show these guys that I can move on from them! Show them I won't waste another minute thinking about them! I can only thank one person and thats Miranda! Her songs gave me back that confidence I needed oh so badly!

My Miranda Moment